being a good mom

It is hard. I try so much everyday and I still feel like I fail most of the time. How do we know we are giving them everything they need to grow, learn, and love? When I have one of those days where I don't come up with any "educational" activities and I spend most of the day doing laundry and dishes..how do I know i haven't totally held him back?

There are some days where I know that I'm on the right track, but somehow that same feeling can be flushed down the toilet the next day.

Just a mom venting a little.....just a mom getting through a day.....just a mom who loves her child so much she worries too much about messing him up :)

A babbling we will go...

The joys of friday evening. Well, the joys of a parent's friday evening. Cameron and I are currently laying on our bed watching Red Dwarf, too tired to do anything else but veg. Some may say we are boring...others understand we are old married parents ;)

This past week has been an eternity. I can't pin point exactly what has made it seem so outrageously long, but I'm sure some of it has to do with Elliott's crankiness from teething. Throw in my first chiropratic appointment that resulted in the knowledge that my back pretty much sucks and an adjustment that has left me writhing in pain and I've been praying for the weekend. At this moment we have no concrete plans for it, but I personally think that is beautiful. We might go to a pumpkin patch tomorrow and I know a toddler bed and mattress are being brought to us for free. And on that note...can I say how amazing people in this world really are? Everybody is on a budget and I'm so thankful that so many people are willing to help each other with things they might need. A lovely woman is giving us this bed just because she wants someone to be able to get use out of it. I know that that is what I will do with my baby things once we are done having them.

I really think we should do some cleaning this weekend. Cleaning...cleaning...cleaning. Ugh. The very word gives me the creeps. Not that we have a dirty house by any means, but it still needs work. Toys everywhere, a pile of dirty clothes next to the washer...some vacuuming...bathroom cleaning...garage clearing. It is never ending. Why in the world did I want to play house so much when I was a little girl?? Seriously.

But for now, I see Cameron's sly looks at me....hoping I'll get off this thing and give him a cuddle. Better be a good wife ;)

Life is precious

Right now I'm rocking out to Veggie Tales with my boy. Well, technically he is sort of whining, but details...details.
Life has given us a few twists and turn. Good and bad. My best friends sis-in-law recently passed away from cancer. I didn't know her very well personally, but it hit me pretty hard. Which I thought as weird, but maybe it is because I love Beth so much and hate when she is in pain. Either way, I know that she was a person who loved life and her kiddos. I sincerely hope that those around will be able to help her children know her very well as they grow. She was young, so young and I cannot fathom her courage and strength as she came to know that she was going to have to leave her husband and children for a time. I am so blessed. I am here on this Earth and I have my health..I have a husband and a child and hopefully more to come. I am here to watch them grow with me. I love the Lord and all that He has given me.

We got a piano for free! Now, I have no idea how to play and at this point I do not have any musical talent. But, our little boy is a lover of a music. I have never seen such a child. He will dance at the drop a hat, loves to look through the hymn book and pick songs for us to sing to him...and now loves to play the piano. This Sunday during Relief Society at church he was determined to help the pianist play the closing and opening hymns...you could hear his bangs on the piano through the melody. I conduct the music and was having a hard time not laughing at his innocent enthusiasm for helping. What a sweet boy I have.