Heartache

Did you ever think that when you got older you would feel things differently or view more in a long term perspective? For some reason, I found out this week that I had thought that.

My good friend Jess and her family moved to Cali this weekend. And when I heard this good news (for it is good news for them) I was happy for them. However, when I put the phone down I bawled. Like a baby. It hurt so much to know that I wouldn't have this great person around to spend time with. She has two super cute kiddos, one who is just a tad younger than Elliott. We use to spend hours chatting, playing with our babies and baking. Jess is geniuely one of the nicest people I've ever met. She is energetic and thoughtful and quite hilarious. I really am going to miss her.

Feeling so much sadness when a friend moved away...it made me realize how special friendship is. I didn't think it would matter as much as you got older or maybe I thought I would deal with it in a more "mature" fashion. But I didn't. I cried for me and prayed for their happiness there. It doesn't really matter how old you are...you still need friends and it is okay to feel for them..to love them.

Now, I don't make friends easily. Maybe that statement isn't quite right...but sometimes I do find it difficult. Shyness and self conciousness being key players in the problem. I hope that as I miss Jess, that I might still be open to building stronger bonds with others.

Onto happier notes. We are all well. Elliott has a sinus infection, but is getting better with the meds he got from his pediatrician. Cameron and I just love to sit and watch Elliott play. He is such an inquisitve little guy. It is lovely to see the concentration on his face when he is figuring something out. This leads to his understanding of the word "no." And make no mistake, he understands...he just chooses which times to adhere to it. My baby is getting to be a little boy---I now understand why everyone says cherish these times while they are there because it is all gone in the blink of an eye. It's just too darn bad that you don't realize it during those time.

I've gonna try to post some pictures in a second post because my computer is being dumb. Go figure. I have a husband who works for Microsoft and I can't even get the image link to work...